Sonbahar\u0131n bu \u0131ss\u0131z ve yaln\u0131z g\u00fcn\u00fcnde akl\u0131ma ilk sen geldin yine.
\nS\u00f6yleyemediklerimi yaz\u0131p rahatlar\u0131m diye kalemi elime ald\u0131m ve ba\u015flad\u0131m i\u015fte\u2026
\nY\u0131llar ge\u00e7ti ben hala s\u00f6yleyemedi\u011fim, belki de s\u00f6ylemedi\u011fim o kelimeyi, anlam\u0131n\u0131 yeni yeni kavrasam da unutam\u0131yorum bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc : \u201cSeni Seviyorum.\u201d .
\nBen bu kelimeyi sana asla s\u00f6ylemedim.Dedim ya s\u00f6yleyemedim i\u015fte, ne bileyim! \u00c7ocukluk o zaman. Anneyi sadece bize bakan biri san\u0131rd\u0131m.Senin yoklu\u011funun \u00fczerinden y\u0131llar ge\u00e7en bu g\u00fcnde bir kez daha anlad\u0131m.Sen, sadece annem de\u011fildin.Sen sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 ok\u015farken \u201cYavrum\u201d demekle ; ben d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce bana \u201cKorkma!Arkanda ben var\u0131m.\u201d Demenle ; her ak\u015fam \u00fczerim a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131p da \u00fc\u015f\u00fctmeyeyim diye ba\u015f\u0131mda beklemenle benim annem olmaktan \u00e7ok bir par\u00e7am, damarlar\u0131mda gezen kan\u0131n kayna\u011f\u0131m\u0131\u015fs\u0131n me\u011fer! Bense bunlar\u0131 g\u00f6remeyecek kadar k\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm ya da de\u011ferini bilemeyecek kadar \u00e7ocuk\u2026
\nBunlar\u0131 duysan belki sevinirsin ama \u201cSen \u00f6yle de\u011filsin, sen bir meleksin.\u201d Der, beni yeniden oyuna getirirsin.Ama, art\u0131k belki b\u00fcy\u00fcmemden belki de senin yoklu\u011funu daha \u00e7ok hisseder olmamdan olsa gerek ki bunlar\u0131 s\u00f6ylemek geldi i\u00e7imden.Her ne kadar da beni hala o \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 g\u00f6zlerinle izledi\u011fini, o narin ellerinle sarmalay\u0131p korudu\u011funu hissetsem de ne bileyim, bana k\u0131rg\u0131n oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcp onlarca, y\u00fczlerce kez sana o kelimeyi ge\u00e7en y\u0131llara inat olsun diye mezar\u0131n\u0131n bu \u0131ss\u0131z ve kuytu k\u00f6\u015fesinde bir kez daha ba\u011f\u0131ra ba\u011f\u0131ra hayk\u0131rmak istiyorum.Belki duyar da geri d\u00f6nersin diye\u2026 <\/p>\n
\u201c Seni Seviyorum\u2026\u201d.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Sonbahar\u0131n bu \u0131ss\u0131z ve yaln\u0131z g\u00fcn\u00fcnde akl\u0131ma ilk sen geldin yine. S\u00f6yleyemediklerimi yaz\u0131p rahatlar\u0131m diye kalemi elime ald\u0131m ve ba\u015flad\u0131m i\u015fte\u2026 Y\u0131llar ge\u00e7ti ben hala s\u00f6yleyemedi\u011fim, belki de s\u00f6ylemedi\u011fim o kelimeyi, anlam\u0131n\u0131 yeni yeni kavrasam da unutam\u0131yorum bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc : \u201cSeni Seviyorum.\u201d . Ben bu kelimeyi sana asla s\u00f6ylemedim.Dedim ya s\u00f6yleyemedim i\u015fte, ne bileyim! \u00c7ocukluk […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[16],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-32","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-melek"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/saHHlZ-annem","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":2123,"url":"https:\/\/www.gocmeniz.biz\/?p=2123","url_meta":{"origin":32,"position":0},"title":"Bulgaristan, T\u00fcrk dizilerini tart\u0131\u015f\u0131yor","author":"Haberci","date":"27 Nisan 2010","format":false,"excerpt":"A.A. 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